I’ve come to realize I tend to want what i can’t have. This happens a lot. Its sort of a vicious cycle actually. The worst part is, I know that I do this and instead of stopping myself I do it some more.
Damn its hot as hell. Makes my workouts like 100X harder. shiettt. Did 6 miles biking, some arms and abs, gonna try and swim some laps and hopefully not be able to move my body by the end of the night.
So now that I’ve had time to be upset and depressed about how the girl I’ve been trying to ask out for the past 4 months is going out with some other guy, I need to figure out what I’m going to do, because sitting on my ass waiting for some miracle to happen is ridiculous and a bullshit solution. I’m in Florida, there’s really nothing I can do at the moment aside from reloading facebook over and over to see if her relationship status goes back to single, which will still get me nowhere. Instead, I’m going to forget about her and focus on working out until I get back, that’s been my plan and I need to stick to it. I have fights to train for and Spartan races to run and a shy six-pack trying to break out of its shell. As soon as that relationship status changes, believe me I’m going for her the very first chance I get. I’m tired of losing, everything I do I lose, and that needs to change. I put way too much damn effort into everything I do just to be told 110% isn’t good enough. That’s plenty more than what most people put in and they still win more than me at life. I’m done losing, make room for one more at the winners circle, I’m running this shit now.